You just have to lie about what you’re researching.

I am a connoisseur of shitty membrane Bluetooth keyboards. All those bad boys need is some AAA’s and a USB port. Learn how to replace the spacebar and its longevity increases from 1 year to 10 years. Highly recommend, never understood the mechanical keyboard craze, suppose everyone has a hobby though.

As someone who made bad relationship choices when I was young I feel you man. One thing I would recommend is not idolising this person or your feelings for them. One of the unfortunate things about falling in love in your late teens is that you’re at your most hormonal. Love will never feel the way it did for you back then. The intensity and the passion of love for someone else won’t ever feel the same. It’ll be different, recognising that, and not letting the absence of that original high define your expectations of love and future relationships is something to make sure you’re prepared for. I hope some of this resonates with you, good luck in moving on. It can take a while, and that’s nothing to be ashamed of.

I just want people to be called by their preferred names and pronouns