I’m not allowed to kill myself because I made a stupid promise to my wife years ago. However, this would be an accident, and I’ve pointed out to her that just because I’m not allowed to off myself on purpose, I don’t have to submit to any life-saving efforts. She tried to argue with me about that, but I played the bodily autonomy card and she had to concede the point.
I cannot tell if this is a joke or not. Are you ok, OP?
OP sounds like they would kill themselves, if it wasn’t for that “stupid promise”. I cannot tell if they are exagerating.