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Might have been the soundcard on my laptop, the old external soundcard I used or audio driver. No idea what the problem actually was. This was a couple of years ago, and I wasn’t very proficient in Linux. I gave up, and then haven’t tried again since.
I used Reaper and an old soundcard from Steinberg. Don’t remember which drivers. Think I ran Ubuntu at the time.
I haven’t messed around with audio in a while, but a couple of years ago I did some home recording. And Linux at the time was horrible to use for recording. Got a bunch of latency and some other issues. I found a solution where one guy had written a bunch of scripts to deal with the buffering when switching audio driver. It helped, but it wasn’t perfect.
No idea what the state of audio is now, but it used to suck. And it will probably suck for a while since the major DAWs are all on Windows/Mac. But I would love to be proven wrong
Type two here, with depression starting when I was 13. Was diagnosed at 21. Mostly struggled with depression and hypomania, and the rapid change between the two. Being diagnosed was maybe the best thing that happened to me. Everything fell into place. It took about 7 years to get the treatment just right, but the medication was mostly working after a year or two.
I’ve been to a lot of meetings, and I know a lot of bipolar people. The thing with bipolar is that when you get the medication right and you do the work, the disease is really manageable. But one of the most frustrating part of the disease is that many suffering from it are not taking their meds or not doing the work. And you can’t force them to either. You can lead a horse to the water, etc. I have been really focused on getting better, but I see the appeal to just don’t do it. One tends to see the disease through rose-tinted glasses. And it is work to just be “normal”. So just saying fuck it and ride the nice initial waves of hypomania/mania can be really tempting. But there is nothing good coming out of that.
I highly recommend reading An Unquiet Mind by Kay Redfield Jamison (and her other books for that matter), she is an expert in bipolar. Both as a psychologist and as a bipolar person herself. Wishful Drinking by Carrie Fisher was also good. I think it is good to try to understand why bipolar people think and do as they do. I do recommend support groups too. Where I’m at there are group meetings 1-2 times a week. Relatives are welcome too. Sometimes there are meetups for relatives only too.
I wish you all the best, and just know that it is possible to live a full and great life as bipolar. There are medication and life-style changes that does wonders, the hard part is sticking with it.