Here’s a video for context https://youtu.be/-Qi7txH1KzY

I had the same thought. The lighting maybe? Or the background trees? Something feels off

I am lawful neutral (use clip it came with) until about halfway through the loaf, then I become chaotic neutral (twist and tuck) at the back half.

There isn’t enough bag to properly twist and tuck until that point anyway.

Your emotions and feelings are your brain and body’s way of communicating with you - listen to them. If you take some time to feel your feelings with a sympathetic lens, you can better understand what’s wrong. While fixing it will be a lot longer of a journey, simply allowing your self to listen will be a good first step.